self sympathy.

okays. sigh.

i feel upset, man.. sigh.

today, i had amaths test.

it was horrible.

but amazingly, i manage to do a question quite correctly.

and the rest?

total bullshit. sigh

had gotten back physics and emaths test paper.

i failed both.

yes, it's hard to keep a smile when i fail a test.

but i put up one.

i think i felt better that way.

i dont know.

i failed phyics by 1/2 marks.

then, i've got 9/30 for emaths.

i know judging from my past emaths test,

that is counted as, well, good.

but i felt that i could have easily pass that test.

it's just if i have bother to study. sigh.

i feel bad. sigh.

im starting to get depressed over nothing.

RARRs.

i've once planned my future.

it was a bright, simple one.

but it's fading away.

maybe it's really true about what i kept saying:

i dont plan to live so long.

it's time to be more realistic,

if the goal is too, too far away,

drop it, let go.

just live for whatever excuse you can get. sigh.

i dont know what im living for, now.

there is not much of a goal. sigh.

i know im searching for something,

but i dont know what it is?

sigh. SELF SYMPATHY.

who's there for me this time?

nobody.